Private life of me

Public life is easier with an anonymous identity. In real life, when I meet people face to face, and then sit down at my blog, I become acutely aware that that person may be looking at what I write! Reality is that they may not ever read a word I write.

Sooooooo……. (looks up at ceiling) I have to get over this self-consciousness.

Could crawling back into my shell cure the problem? (laughs)

I am also aware of my family quietly checking in on the latest news (waves – “Hi Mum!”)

All those things that come to mind to write about are quickly discarded, such as trauma, health, relationships, business progress, religion, my emotional life – especially through poetry, and pretty much everything.

The colouring book is fiiiine, it doesn’t seem to get affected by self-consciousness.

Perhaps I could don an anonymous personality purely for my writing, and start afresh! This blog actually has become pretty quiet lately, and seems to have lost a definite focus. It’s been a bit all over the place since I started to get serious about earning an income online.

If you are visiting for the first time, or a regular follower, pleeease share any tips on what you might do to get over this sort of self-consciousness. Is the anonymous way the best bet do you think?

Or would it work to dedicate this blog to a certain thing, such as poetry, and make every post a piece of poetry? I appreciate your input!

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Blogs are not for making money

Okay, this is a business therapy update… I have learned that blogs are not for making money. It’s not the end of the world, just the end of the direction I was heading in. I still have the e-books, the art, and the technical skills I have developed over the last six-months to a year.

And lots of contacts online. The online community, and the flexible nature of working online are very important to me. I have advertised a “Meetup” for meeting people in the ‘real world’ and already I am finding it more and more difficult to visualize it as a sustainable thing for me. I have been noting my physical condition, and the mental processes relating to setting it up.

I still have trouble making phone calls. To the point where I am not making them. I have improved to the point where I answer my phone, and I am making calls out to close family. I am making appointments and keeping them, and this is all good. Minimal stress involved.

There are things that are outside of my control, and potentially dangerous, when it comes to meeting random people at a set date and time. When I start pushing into this sort of territory, the “symptoms” I have noticed are:

Avoidance (as in phone calls.) I know that if I push it, this will lead to a stress response which gets my immune system all fizzed up. Kind of like asthma or allergic reaction.

Tearfulness, and feelings of dread, at random times of day.

Nightmares. And sort of daymares..

My mind goes through all the scenarios of the potential danger I would face. Although I am not experiencing terror or panic, I am feeling the heightened stress and pressure.

I would have to kind of go all hyper and almost pretend to be someone else in order to push through it all, and from experience this would last about three months, before needing a doctor’s appointment for stress/exhaustion, etc. I foresee it would culminate in allergy problems, compromised immune system, which at this stage could lead direct to cancers due to the long-term nature of this stress, and things like chronic fatigue where the adrenals basically start to completely pack it in. Kept up too long and I face unconsciousness, coma, and death. Sounds morbid doesn’t it, but I have done my research.

In the last week I have fallen down three or four times. Have had trouble getting to sleep, mostly due to putting pressure on myself to speed up the process of earning an income online. My skin inflammation has worsened, and my legs keeping swelling up, on and off.

Prior to that, with the positive excitement from last February onward of setting up a business online, I have been really very healthy and happy. The daily art has helped I reckon.

I have another appointment soon, with the powers-that-be, and hope they might have some useful suggestions for how to handle things from here, with regard to my personal circumstances.

For now, I have an another e-book to put together! And this one is going to be marketed like none of my others have…. And, I am publishing and marketing it for someone else, not myself. This works well for me. If it sells well, (and I am aiming for a bestseller) then perhaps there are more e-books I could market for other people. We will see! ūüôā

(Ed: October 6th, Lost some kgs, and down another size in clothes. o.O Hehe don’t know whether to call it good or bad. Appetite poor, and queasy on and off. On the good news side of the picture, sunshine helps with de-stressing for sleep, as does a long walk, and a hot bath at the end of the day. A good sleep helps with thinking and ideas. Dentist visit might lead to an extraction, who knows, due to a split tooth. Toenails are brittle. Thoughts are a bit all over the place and I may hunt for an advocate on Monday. There are things that are hard to say, and possibly (hopefully) unnecessary to say. Please excuse all the notes! Best thing for calm at present is to trust in God.)

Two e-books on blogging and Kindle

I am finding the principles in both of these e-books very helpful, and highly recommend others who want to increase interaction, views and followers on their blogs, and make a profit from successful sales and promotion of their Kindle e-book.
 
HarsH ReaLiTy (A Blogging Manual)

Crush It With Kindle – How to self publish your books on Kindle and promote them to #1 bestseller status

Social networking is all about being social, and not only for the business side of things, attracting possible customers, also for the sake of simply being sociable. For me this is important as I have experienced some big ups and downs when it comes to being with other people. Opinionated Man’s blogworld has opened up a doorway for me which has helped me to learn (re-learn?) some basic essentials about being sociable.

I have (re-)learnt the basics of visiting people, inviting people over, opening conversations in which people express their opinions, how to treat others’ opinions with respect even if we disagree, and keeping up with current events. Opinionated Man shows how all of this translates into certain things we can actively do online to have the same social effect. OM’s e-book HarsH ReaLiTy (A Blogging Manual) is more than just a blogging manual, it holds the principles of how to build a creative community, and also shares some of his life and background. I have only begun to tap into this potential, and I believe it applies not only to an online community, but also to creating a community outside of the internet.

John Tighe’s e-book, Crush It With Kindle, is specifically designed to help make a success of selling a Kindle e-book. I am still part-way through reading it properly, because it really calls for a step-by-step approach, whereas I have not yet begun to design my e-book. I had previously thought that it was not possible to print my colouring pages from a Kindle, and found out this week that I was wrong! So, I have read the book once-through and understand the principles of it, and I believe it will work to set my e-book off to a roaring start. It is a system that obviously worked for John Tighe and I am very glad he has chosen to share it with us all.

My offline life is about to benefit from increased sociability, after some time of adjusting to being shunned from a large social group, and also recovering from the worst effects of post-traumatic stress. Might sound strange, but it really seemed like I needed to completely re-learn how to be social, from scratch. Opinionated Man’s methods seem to have provided a social theory, that I could practice from the relative “safety” of an online identity, and now feel confident that I can put it into practice in ‘real life.’ I won’t outline my plans as yet because they are in the delicate idea stage! It does relate to art.

My income is, I hope! about to take a turn for the better due to John Tighe’s step-by-step advice. I want to share this with anyone who is also hoping to make an income from their successful Kindle e-book.

All the best,
Anasera

PDF downloads and e-book ideas, mixed with a bit of spontaneous creativity… and add a dash of marketing – hopefully means some sales!

I spent some time today putting together a PDF colouring book, after googling that Amazon had something called eDocs that were mainly PDFs and printable. eDocs were also supposed to be smaller than eBooks… and sounded like just what I needed for digital sales of my colouring book art.

Once I finished the PDF, try as I might, I could not find how to upload a PDF to Amazon as an eDoc. So I am waiting for a reply to an email for help. Somehow I think that eDocs no longer exist. So I am not holding my breath.

My next idea, is to make an e-book, and build in a way to allow my e-book buyers to print out the pictures! My cunning plan is to add links within the e-book, which take the reader through to a PDF download page, which they can print from within Adobe Reader, or similar. So the price of the e-book covers the printable artwork.

There will need to be probably some sort of password protection on the download page. And it can be a page on my blog, that cannot be accessed except by people who bought the e-book. Readers would find their password inside the e-book.

http://www.thomasedison.com/quotes.html Thomas Edison comes to mind as I discard yet another idea on the way to whatever comes of my colouring book adventure. Goodbye eDoc idea!

This e-book… I have thoughts of it being the most fantastic e-book ever. Then I would have to figure out how to make it so. The key, I think, is the links. To be able to click a link from my e-book reader and be taken somewhere special, that relates to the page I’m reading. This does not always have to be a colouring book page. It could be a link to a video, or an audio recording of a poem which the reader is looking at in the e-book, which includes some other ramblings by the poet beyond what can be read on the page.

It could link to a blog, anybody’s blog, on a related topic. One link per page. One “call to action,” so as not to confuse the reader with too many things to do. Don’t want to overload with too many choices.

Singing and music could sprout up from a link. The e-book becomes a bit like a slice of a blog, which can be sold on Amazon.

The e-book itself is the “shop front.” And the blog becomes the warehouse storage behind the scenes. With a window display that can be freely perused by blog followers. The window display is made up of the free pages and posts on the blog. There will have to be private pages or posts that can only be accessed via the “shop front” e-book. They must not be available via Google searches. The hidden pages or posts would probably need a visible page which explains that access is via buying the e-book, with a direct link to Amazon where it can be bought with One-Click.

I am liking this idea more and more. Probably someone has done it already, and I would like to have a search and see what their e-book and blog looks like. More research to do…

Meantime… it is time to prepare forms and paperwork for the US taxman. If I work things right then hopefully I won’t lose another 30% from the grand total of less than $15 made in online sales so far. So, yeah, I haven’t hit the big-time yet. The e-book idea is compelling. And I hadn’t thought of what to put into an e-book before. This one I hope will be a best-seller.

  1. Art
  2. Poetry
  3. Links

That is the basic interior of the e-book. Then come the links:

  1. Colouring book pages of the printable variety
  2. Fine art / digital art for download, or physical delivery
  3. Audio poetry reading
  4. Video introduction
  5. Video for kids
  6. Links to authors, poets, and creative communities
  7. Links to bloggers
  8. Links to a series of stories, or comics, that come out in episodes. Like an index page. Or table of contents. Hmm I don’t know if authors/comic artists would receive royalties from the e-book, or if they would pay for a link to be added! Hee hee. Maybe treat it the same as links between blogs. Good traffic boosters.

Now, the e-book would “expire” in a funny way. The next e-book would have a new password to access the next lot of links.

Possibly the old passwords could be removed and the old links only accessible by buying the next e-book. The price and timing would be important. It would be a bit like a subscription, which could be paid monthly, or yearly, or six-monthly. Depending on how often a new e-book is created.

I will need to think about it all some more. Thought others might benefit from thinking along the same lines. And there is surely room for collaboration by artists, writers and all other creative types… A bit of spontaneous creativity gone wild would be a lot of fun.

Thank you to my top referrers…

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Thank you Google Search and Google Image Search, who referred about half each of the 1,430 views

Thank you Yahoo and all of you who visit from your Yahoo mailbox!

Thank you Gravatar for a handy way for people to connect

Thank you WordPress Dashboard… err.. I am wondering if that is Me clicking on my stuff

Thank you Opinionated Man, look at those views coming through from your site!

Thank you Twitter, I am enjoying the poetic connection

Thank you my other little blogs which link to the colouring book

Thank you Facebook, for a portal through to the blog! That’s 31 referrals compared to 7 likes! (Still haven’t got the hang of FB.)

Thank you Daily Post, I enjoy the occasional Weekly Photo Challenge with fellow WordPress photographers, artists and poets.

Most of these referrals happen without me doing anything except keep posting stuff and tagging it, and setting up ‘Publicize’ to send a link to my other social media sites when I press “Publish.”

The exception is OM’s blog, where it is so easy to get absorbed in the conversation with the many bloggers who enjoy gathering around OM’s campfire, so to speak. This was a bit of an eye-opener. If you’ve never visited before, I would recommend trying the Southern Pot Roast and Green Beans wrapped with bacon… and check out the blogging tips.

To all the three hundred odd referrers who make up the rest of the list, a Mighty Big Thank You goes out to you. Many names I recognize from comments and conversations, and meeting up on blogs. Some I know have colouring pictures on their blogs, with links to send people to the Wildersoul Colouring Book. I thank you all so very much for your support.

Where do your referrals come from?

Lazy Likes

I have been doing more comments, and less likes, and actually it is really hard work. I am inclined to think of it as ‘too hard.’ And I am missing out on getting a rapid glimpse of a huge variety of blogs. When browsing through the Reader my mind gets focused differently, and I memorize names of blogs, and gravatar pictures, and the picture and content visible. Maybe it sounds superficial, and yet I think it is the same as walking into a crowded place and noting the faces and name tags of a whole ton of people there. Perhaps a bit like briefly shaking hands with everyone you meet, and exchanging names briefly with perhaps a tiny snippet of conversation.

There is a place for that…

It doesn’t have to be deep and intimate for every encounter with every single person. Unrealistic expectations!

I guess that’s what I get for being such a hermit for so long…. I forget the usefulness of brief fleeting exchanges, and lose the ability to quickly recognise people. I will go back to clicking Like on blogs I like, many of them in a row, because I really need to do that. It sharpens my mind. I love to recognise people when they come to visit later.

When people visit, I love to visit their blog again, to refresh my memory, and also to dig a bit deeper, and browse some more posts to get a rounder picture of the person. I suppose this would be a bit like meeting again over a short coffee break and exchanging a couple of stories.

Comments are what I like best, and yet they do take more mental energy to formulate. It’s also good for me. Not in very large doses though! I will go back to my lazy likes in large dollops, and keep the comments as the icing on top. A lot of work to create something which I find the sweetest part of the blogging cake.

Catching up with the housework

My life seems quiet from the outside.  And peace pervades my home.  Generally.

On the inside, there is busy work and thoughts that crowd each room. ¬†There is a castle built in my mind. It’s under re-construction. And the guards have received orders to let the drawbridge down and allow people in.

I invited a man in for coffee today.  I must have been reasonably certain he would not come in. (She says withholding a grin!)

Twitter seems a friendly place, and ideally suited to the friendly business I want to thrive in.  (Hope you got my good morning and welcome tweets!)  I may use it to let people know when I am in, and available for coffee and a chat.

My colouring pictures seem to be left till the evenings lately and that’s cool. ¬†I have a room full of laundry to do, and it’s a grey cold day. ¬†Our hot water has run out, so I’m boiling up a great big pot on our new stove.

Here’s my day ahead – which I will no way get through completely. ¬†It will spill over to tomorrow.

Wash all the clothes.

Get a chicken and veges to roast in our new oven.  That includes a half hour walk to the shops in the fresh air and a mini endurance-training stint on the way back, lugging the food.

Look up public domain pictures of native pollinators and plants for a certain State in the US. ¬†Look up which State…

Practice drawing the pollinators and plants.

Think up a design for a poster for kids to colour in.  Keeping in mind the aim of raising awareness that butterflies sipping nectar means food on our tables.  No butterflies, no food.

Re-read children’s nonsense poem and break into pictures. ¬†Then figure out what I need to learn to draw. ¬†And then find public domain images to practice on. ¬†Create a collection of colouring pics and send them to wonderful author.

Sit down and plan out priorities for learning how to setup a small business.  I might as well list what is hanging over my shoulders:

  • Prepare for Chamber of Commerce appointment next week, with outline of business, and questions to ask.
  • Prepare for IRD appointment the week after, with questions on tax for items sold outside of NZ, and about special tax codes to avoid being charged tax twice.
  • Make appointments with Creative NZ, and Arts Access Aotearoa
  • Read BizInfo.govt.nz
  • The rest can wait…

Find silver dampguard stuff to lay on the sleepout floor so the underlay and carpet don’t get damp and mouldy…

Turf everything out of the sleepout again, and lay all the dampguard, underlay and carpet so the room is usable.¬†Fix the broken windowpane in the door, with a bit of money and a phone call. ¬†Hurf some things back into the sleepout and the rest out on the street. ¬†Or somewhere… ¬†(Oh how I long for a bonfire…)

Step 519: Clear moss out of cobblestones, and seriously clear out the garden. Hah. Not likely today.

I am pleased to see the sun has come out, so I going to go and sit in it, on the back step. ¬†When I come back, I hope to have finished everything on the list… hahaha… ¬†Still doesn’t include checking in on the kids making their movie for the next Cut! Secondary School competition, learning how to use Twitter, finding out how the WooCommerce Subscriptions, Groups WooCommerce, and Groups plugins work. And making new collections of artwork to sell in my shop. (sigh).

Never mind vacuuming the floor, and washing the windows, and figuring out why on earth the toilet overflow pipe randomly leaks all over the floor!

And I still haven’t gone next door to meet the new baby, and give them my present.

I do all right when I find I have a lot on my mind, and I write up some sort of plan to tackle it.  I am in the stage just before that where I feel totally overwhelmed.

This was meant to be a short post to say – “Hi everyone – bit busy catching up on housework – will be back later today!”

I feeeeeel good…. like I know that I should….

Two more wonderful moments – the man delivered the underlay, which is clean, soft and smells nice. And the people who pay to keep me alive called and are more than happy with the work and study I am doing. ¬†So we live on another day. ūüôā

Sending sunshine and peace your way…

~WilderSoul

PS – please don’t ask often how I am… giggle and chortle…

PPS – and I didn’t count contacting new blog followers, interacting in comments, reading blog posts, and writing my own…

PPS – nor any kind of focused and directed spiritual pursuits!