Put Off.

Seems like everything is being put off in some way or another. I’m sticking to the daily artwork uploads.. and that is pulling me through with some semblance of continuity.

There are many projects I want to work on. And I have a program called Trello to figure out, for visual drag and drop project management. I think that a colouring group is highest priority. I need real people to connect with.

Who knows. Maybe this is all coming down to ‘get a haircut and get a real job…’

I see so many artists, writers, musicians, filmmakers, poets, and all sorts of creative types, who have a day job, (or night job), and do their creative work outside of those hours. Perhaps that is about to happen for me too.

The future of my online colouring book was never certain. It was the start of something that I hoped would lead to work for an income, whether that was from the colouring book itself, or from the skills I learned along the way.

I have to say, I have quite fallen in love with it. And all it entails. However, work for money is now high priority. And from the last three interviews I get the overall picture that there ought not be anybody on any sort of welfare anywhere. The world has no place for the poor, the sick, the bereft. The thought of Mao Zedong “cleaning up” the streets of China looms heavy on my mind. Never mind the Bible, (John 12:8) in the words of Jesus, “For you have the poor always with you.” Not if they are killed off by the rich and powerful. The thought of my artwork pinned on the wall like some dead butterfly for someone’s greedy hope of it becoming a golden egg somehow completely puts me off creating anything of beauty or worth. It feels like creating a child to hand over to a slave trader for some pieces of silver.

So… the focus on healing is closest to my heart. That could continue whether it is my main job or not. A colouring picture a day…

Setting up a group to meet and colour… in this town, it is probably quite relevant. Many have no appreciation of the arts. Perhaps colouring in could be the very first step… to colouring outside the lines. Rather than a child learning to make marks on a blank sheet of paper, we could be working backwards, to get to the blank sheet. To undo the picture, back to the start. And start again, fresh and devoid of expectations. Throwing away the limitations to the creative mind. Allowing… letting… freeing…

As much as I would like to work on collaborations… right now it is time to advertise a colouring group.

#RollingSleevesUp #ReadyToWork

#BringOnThePeople #GoodByePTSD

#ShunMeIWillFindOthers

Who else wants to have a go organising a colouring group in their local area? Feel free to use colouring pictures from the Wildersoul Colouring Book. Let’s get sociable. Even if it is awkward.

Opinions are beasts of burden…

Opinions
are beasts
of
burden

Carrying
the weight
of emotions
experiences
mixed media messages
forced through tv sets
computer screens
radio ears
ipod streams

Delivering
life or death on a plate
of words, gentle as honey
sharp as a dagger
and
when
looked
down
upon,
stink
like
a
dead
cat.

The tale bent
where it was run over.

—-
In response to Project O at aopinionatedman.com where a huge selection of posts are building up, each one devoted to one blogger’s opinion, on opinions. The more I read, the more I realize how an opinion is acceptable to those who are of the same opinion. And that there are broad groups that align to certain opinions, or ways of thinking, or a way of life.

Those outside those groups are deemed to have smelly opinions by those inside the groups.

And although the outsider may express their story, it can reach the ears of the insider in a distorted fashion. As crooked as a cat’s tail. (Did you spot that the poem is concrete? Do you see the cat’s bent tail?) The poem-cat offers a strange perspective, just as some people’s opinions are judged as strange due to the angle they are viewed from. Notably, the cat is upright, and its ‘tale’ holds weight.

The cat is seen as dead, a state in which no opinion is called for, from a cat. So, an undesirable opinion is like a dead cat dressed up in funeral clothes handing out appetizers to the begrudging gravediggers who hope to have it buried by lunchtime.

An opening exists for the Opinion to Shine. There are a pair of listening ears, an eager mind. Powers of thought and reason disciplined by love, and nourished with respect.

The large group turns away, black-suited backs braced against the smell.

While the sweet scent of light, truth, and understanding, intoxicates the open mind. The flame is passed on. The burden of truth.

Brainstorming – colouring book

Anything goes here, and any extra ideas are very welcome to throw into the mix. I need to shake my brain out a bit.

(Edit: This helped. The downheartedness is departing and the hopefulness is setting in once more. I recommend brainstorming to anyone pushing through a business idea)

—-BrAiN-STorMinG—

143MB file download takes maybe four hours or more on dial-up connections. That’s for 458 PNG files that are compressed into a single zipfile.

Some people do not have an internet connection at all.

Everyone who has a high speed internet connection with plenty of bandwidth, can already access my FREE online colouring book. Which is good…. although perhaps these are the people who are more able to afford a $12 subscription, than those with dial-up, or no internet at all. (?)

Colouring in is healing in itself, as it accesses the creative side of the brain.

Using the colouring as a means of expression, or as something to accompany a course of therapy really requires at least one other person to share the process with. This could be a friend, family member, therapist or counsellor, or similar. Someone to share the journey with and ‘be there’ when things get rough.

Online support groups, for colouring in. Share work, or share a story, or simply gather together with a creative bunch. Have fun!

Meet at a cafe and bring a bunch of colouring pics to share, along with some coloured pencils or crayons, and sharpeners. Forget about the rest of the world for a while.

Meet at a community art centre and start a colouring group for $x per session per person per week.

$180-ish per week, would be perhaps 2 days, with 2 sessions of four or five people per session. 9 people x $10 x 2 days

Would people pay that much to colour in?

Is there community funding available for a colouring project which aims to provide a healthy creative activity open to the whole community?

Hmm. 4 days, with 2 sessions of four or five people. 18 people x $5 x 4 days.

You know, anybody could do this, by printing off colouring book pages from my blog, and set up a venue, or go into schools, rest homes, mental health hospitals, or units within hospitals, to provide some colourful company to others. Whether as paid work, or as voluntary companionship.

I wonder if there is a grant available for one artist to work part-time on providing a free online colouring book to the global community via the internet…. Equivalent of 15 hrs a week at minimum wage is about $10,140. I might go down this avenue.

Schools are a big market…

Businesses apparently can now be sued for causing stress to their employees in the workplace. (Thank you mum for this idea…) Put colouring books into stressful offices to provide a quick time-out to de-stress, and engage the creative brain, before returning to the fray in a corporate environment.

(Schools and corporations do not appeal to me quite so much as our values are quite different.)

Perhaps if other people were to find these ideas useful to start their own business, then they could send a small commission for the use of the artwork. Like maybe 5% or 10%. You get 90% to 95% of whatever you are paid.

I have limitations and have to find a way to work around them.

So far the most suitable option for me, seems to be applying for a grant to work part-time as an artist providing a Creative Space, and ‘health resource.’  As well as asking for a small commission (royalty?) from others who may really be able to go out regularly and be with people face to face, and create a physical space where people can meet and colour in together.

Possibly, I could burn CDs or DVDs with 365+ colouring book pictures, and sell them for the $12. Plus postage.

143MB for 458 files might take up to half an hour to download, for high speed internet, with good bandwidth. For some it would be a lot quicker.  This would still be quicker than going through each blog post to download each picture individually. Once on your own computer, there is software available to preview all the pictures either in a file manager, or photo viewer.

Paper version. Needs to really be at a higher resolution for print, and a non-standard paper or binding used, which means paying a bit extra to self-publish. I am short of funds for paying the extra.  Increasing the size would be desirable, and this means editing every single image file. This would take quite some time.

I am convincing myself at this point to go ahead and offer the $12 download of 365+ files, as it has ongoing benefits that perhaps outweigh the time it takes to download. (I am used to downloading single files which take a second or a few seconds, or at most a number of short minutes to arrive on to my computer.) It would need to be treated as a large creative resource which will take more than an “instant” to arrive.

Okay. I will start writing my introductory offer, and load the large zipfile to my DropBox/Sellbox/PayPal machine. Ready to do business.

 

 

Draft Only – what do you think?

I’m sharing my business adventure as I go along. This is the basic format for my email and/or blog page invitation, the referral registration form, and Sellbox/PayPal link.

——First Draft——

Hi,

Offer – subscription and downloadable files. Buy now, $12 for 365+ artworks, and a year’s subscription for 2013.

Statement of benefit – Colouring in is good for the soul. It helped in my healing from PTSD. Quote, “asdkfjalsdkjflajsdf,” Testimonial, “a;soldklakdsjflakjsdf”

bio – Anasera Trifonoff, Wildersoul artist

background – helped with PTSD

Vision – colouring pictures available to the whole world

Mission – promote understanding of benefits of colouring in, daily uploads of artwork to blog, affordable subscriptions, available offline. Target market/s. All adults and children in general. Specifically: Mental health service providers and users, hospitals, disability service providers and users, physical and intellectual disabilities, addictions, drug & alcohol, counselling, prisons, older persons in rest homes, retirement villages, activities directors, alzheimers, social development, child, youth and family, family and community, older persons, disability, hospice, ADHD, restorative justice, victim support, adoption and foster care, sexual assault, brain injury, community services.

Promotion – 1000 invitations to subscribe during September for only $12

Invitation and Buy Now button/link to Sellbox

More info…

Join the Wildersoul Referral program, Link. Give a gift of 10% discount to the person you refer.   And earn a discount for your next year’s subscription, calculated at the end of the year. You may also be eligible for bonus discounts on special promotions, if I think up something interesting to offer! (Suggestions are welcome.)

01 – 10 referrals 20% discount

11 – 20 referrals 40% discount

21 – 30 referrals 60% discount

31 – 40 referrals 80% discount

40 + referrals 100% discount

You are welcome to refer individual people, or an organization, no problem.

Please register here, and I will give you a promotion code. Give this code to your family, friends, business contacts – anyone at all who could benefit from colouring in. All they need to do is enter the promotion code, to receive a 10% discount on their purchase at this link here. The code they enter will show up on my financial statements, and I can then keep count of how many referrals are yours at the end of the year.

I will then email you at the address you give on the registration form to give you a discount coupon to purchase the next year’s colouring book and subscription. It may even be 100% FREE.

Please encourage your friends to join the referral program to receive future discounts too.

—-

Email Form

Name

Email

Website

I would like to register for the Wildersoul Referral Program.

—-

Sellbox Form

Please enter your promotion code here:

Buy now, $12 for 365+ artworks, and a year’s subscription for 2013.

Sample of some colouring pictures as a preview.

——end of First Draft——

This is probably going to end up at wildersoul.com

It’s taking longer than I thought to get it all written up. I’m going to take a break and have a warm drink. LoL the links don’t exist yet, so please don’t be tricked into pressing the coloured text!

When I come back, I will search for the info I have already written for a short bio, and on my business plan, and in the profile I wrote up for Project O, at Harsh Reality.

~WilderSoul

Life Update – Creative Contacts

I am determined to move into the equivalent of 15hrs a week paid employment. This means for me, a specific financial goal of $10,140 per year, minimum.

First step – revisit my one page business plan and publish it.
Second step – serious look at time management
Third step – brainstorm ideas for painting… later on look at whether it is relevant.

Now for a list of creative contacts that I am pursuing. I need support for my confidence and personal development, as well as creative and professional development. And it needs to be from within my community if possible. Online community support may turn out to be more suitable for my situation. If this list is helpful to you please feel free to help yourself to contacts! 🙂 I feel this is the best and most accessible place for me to keep it, and to keep adding to it.

Online Community Support
We Poets Show It
Art Is The Cure
Harsh Reality

New Zealand
Creative Spaces – Arts Access Aotearoa
http://artsaccess.org.nz/about-us
info@artsaccess.org.nz
(04) 802 4349

Turning Point Recovery Services
http://turningpoint.org.nz/
http://turningpoint.org.nz/23/contact-us

Creative NZ
http://www.creativenz.govt.nz/

Chamber of Commerce
http://www.tauranga.org.nz

Business.govt.nz

Honor her

Magnetic Poetry honor her

 

 

Proof of my addiction to blogging

Yes, I am here, and I had intended to keep the laptop lid shut all day today. The sun is shining and we have not walked out the door to walk in it yet!

I had to let people know, that when you sell your e-books through Amazon, you are allowed to earn a commission of up to 10% for advertising your own book. How cool is that? I mistakenly thought that the commission didn’t count if I referred it from a link on my own blog. Found out I was wrong yesterday!

All you e-book authors out there, make a little bit more by joining up on this link: https://affiliate-program.amazon.com/gp/associates/join/landing/main.html

(Don’t listen to me, I got the percentage wrong before, best just visit the site and decide for yourself.)

I am hoping that my brain is improving, although on the surface it may seem like it is not. I am in wait and see mode, and hopefully will not need to visit a doctor. I had a bit of a cold recently and near the end got all stuffed up in the sinuses, with a headache. Sorry to get all graphic here…. As it was clearing up, I had some bouts of fluid leaking from my nose, in an unusual manner. Funny colour too – transparent but slightly hmmm yellowy-orange? in colour.  Strangely reminded me of bile. And anyway, now I feel much better, and the cold is gone.

After a bit of research I am creating my own bit of fiction about my brain blowing up and bursting…. LOL! And that of course explains all my craziness…. In my invented story, I am much more calm and rational now than ever before, because my bubble popped and my brain is restored to normal size. Hehe, my kids tell another story… in which I am the same as ever…. Silly ole me!

Anyway, my day off was kind of hoping for time to let my brain cool off after all the work setting up another blog, which I am really wondering now if it was such a bright idea. I have too many really!

==== show’s over… that’s pretty well all the interesting stuff said and done, just boring notes to myself about my blogs beyond this point! Sorry folks! ====

I may squash my photography blog into this blog. Maybe.

My wildersoul.com blog has been a great place to learn about what doesn’t work for me. That’s partly why I started the new dissolvingbuildings.com blog. There are still things that work best on a self-hosted domain though. Any tricky things that need a script. Like the utilities that my son makes. Have you seen the blank-circle-frame generator? That won’t run on this blog, or on the paid WP.com blog. And the embedded Amazon shop is pretty cool. Can’t be embedded here, only linked, which takes the viewer off-site).

The problem with PayPal. It sends me your email and your name attached to your PayPal account. (I received my first payment just recently and so now I know.) This presents a problem. I would need to win people’s trust, and that would include providing a privacy policy, and some sort of security of data assurance written into terms of service or something like that. Legal stuff.  Basically, “I won’t use your email address for anything except correspondence about your purchase, and will not give it out to anyone else.”

So although selling direct means a lower price for the buyer, and a higher commission for me, it comes with its own problems. Selling through Amazon, although they take commission off for themselves, has a trusted payment system in place.

CreateSpace has a thing where I can order my paperbacks at cost price, which is about $2.15 (US), and then I can change the delivery address to send the books to the person who wants to buy them. I will have to check if there is free delivery within the US.  This could be a good option for bulk orders, for schools, or hospitals. I could ask for a very small commission on top. This could be good for orders of say 10 books for a therapist’s waiting room.

I feel disappointed about the PayPal situation. However, perhaps it is all part of building up a reputation and a brand, and putting all of the legal bits in place. That’s a big job to do and requires some research, and possibly trusting a lawyer of some sort.

The dissolvingbuildings.com blog has bridged a gap between my blog world, and my extended family. Which is a good thing, and is a stepping stone to connecting to the neighbourhood and community.

I have bottled up some excitement in what I call a special treat for myself. I bought a guillotine, no don’t call me Madame! And refilled the toner for our black and white printer, so I will be very soon designing colouring books and printing, trimming and stapling them myself. And printing off sheets of business cards on the special cardboard I bought. So the physical advertising in the community will start fairly soon.

Hopefully I will settle into a bit of a routine over the next week or two. I find it very hard to switch into new habits, it takes time and repetition. If you are reading all this boring stuff, then please bear with me over the next few weeks as I behave a bit like a spider in a spaceship, making very deranged-looking webs for a while, until I get things figured out and things are beautifully in order again.

Final thoughts… I want my wildersoul.wordpress.com free online colouring book mostly focused as a resource for those healing from trauma, of any kind. Any kind of therapeutic use. And of course available for children, homeschoolers, and others who love to colour. Because of this, I am not so keen on having a shop attached, or advertising on the site. All of that can zip over to dissolvingbuildings.com, which is really where we will chase our dreams, and set up in business as a family. In itself that is a very healing thing for our family. And it is leading on to changes in our offline life too. One of us has a part-time job offer for the next six months at least. When there is a motivated goal, then things start to fall into place.

Wishing you all the best for the weekend, if you have read this far! You deserve a break! (smiling…)

Anasera.

PS. don’t worry about my brain. It is probably inflamed from me eating wheat. We had a huge spicy moist carrot cake with cream cheese icing for our blog opening celebrations… and it is all gone now. Naughty me.

Easy Listening Fast Colouring

Well, I colour in quick, and this is me going even quicker. Eight times quicker! Some easy listening music for a change, until it cuts off at the end. It’s page three of my paperback version of the Wildersoul Colouring Book. You could have a go too! Great fun.

Music courtesy of YouTube, Sunseeker by David O’Brien.

Twitter Poetry Collection #1

#TwitterPoetry
takes the world by storm,
raining tweets from night to dawn,
flocks of tweeters burst into song,
twitterature short, not long

#TwitterPoetry #Twoosh
A Twoosh will not cut short
It is Full and Fits just so
Tweet Box limits will form
a twitter poem 140 characters long

@mptypes #twitterpoetry
What shall he become?
What is he already?
A remarkable maker
of #TwitterPoetry!

#twitterpoetry
Love is
your words every day
your heart on the page
infusing emotion
good, or bad.
Love is
listening
being there
caring.
And.

#twitterpoetry
My friend
Twin soul
Sharing space
without distance
Emotions join like umbilical cord
Thoughts meld in amniotic fluid
Love is.

#twitterpoetry
A poem a day
keeps arthritis at bay
A poem a week
keeps tongue firmly in cheek
A poem a month
can dredge up much gumpf!

@peterflom #twitterpoetry
Your tweet did not shock me
And your spamfilter did not block me
Welcome to #twitterpoetry! 🙂

#twitterpoetry
Grasping the vine
I am dragged up by hope
Carried by kindness
and blossom in love

#twitterpoetry
Bouncing like a ball
through life
A caged tiger
wearing thin

WilderSoul ‏@Wilder_Soul 15 Jul
#twitterpoetry
Horror
at what I have done.
Rage
at my tortures
Shame
at my disclosure
Tears
at my expression
Hope
for my salvation

WilderSoul ‏@Wilder_Soul 15 Jul
#twitterpoetry
Life is not meant to live a cage
open the door, free the bird
Love is not meant to live in rage
open the heart, free the pain

#twitterpoetry
Evergreen
In love always
Morning shower
rains sunshine today

@BrittBratta #twitterpoetry
Mending cracks and broken pieces
with love and pure gold
Beauty shines within this girl
created new and whole

#twitterpoetry
Ideas descend, un-lit
potential blown by wind
splash reflection
reveal facets of me

#twitterpoetry
Poets crash on welcome shore
Boulders shoulder the spray
As words fly up like seagulls
and rain down, come what may…

#twitterpoetry
Skyward stretch
Immersed in sunrise
Ascend hope’s rainbow
to Life… Free.

#twitterpoetry @TarinaTrifonoff @bonitagringuita
friends are mercury
slipping into the pool
becoming one.

#twitterpoetry #haiku #personification
Sky dances glaring
red gestured paint daring
icy wisps to grin

WilderSoul ‏@Wilder_Soul 11 Jul
#twitterpoetry #metaphor #haiku
I am rain, falling.
Tender sprouts soak in my joy
My stormcloud breaks trees
#wildersoul #writing #group

#Twitterpoetry the caged tiger… rains sunshine today…

Bouncing like a ball
through life
A caged tiger
wearing thin.

Life is not meant to live in a cage
open the door, free the bird
Love is not meant to live in rage
open the heart, free the pain

Horror
at what I have done.
Rage
at my tortures
Shame
at my disclosure
Tears
at my expression
Hope
for my salvation

Grasping the vine
I am dragged up by hope
Carried by kindness
and blossom in love

Mending cracks and broken pieces
with love and pure gold
Beauty shines within this girl
created new and whole

Evergreen
In love always
Morning shower
rains sunshine today