Sleep

SLEEP

Brain foggy, wipers blunt
Sleep is vibrantly alive, kicking
me into action, 24/7, no time to stop

Get up, get moving

Every second is too heavy,
and sleep is nasty

poking me with a stick

propping my eyelids open
with grit
and determination
Mustn’t be late

for what?

Sleep eats my memories
tossing me aside
with the peelings

the shards

wrapped in old news
paper, thin
and hungry
Sleep now demented
forces me down

with sudden aggression
bangs my head forward to the ground
which falls up to meet me

and pins me down
heavily, laughing
and totally in control

I do not surrender

I wait for sleep
The cat meows outside the door

in surreal waltz time

as sleep finally slumbers

and I fall…

Ta-Daah! Hire me… go on, I dare you :) Yes, this is my CV.

CV

I am actively seeking part-time work from home as an artist, or within the creative industries.

Business Start-up

I am strongly interested in helping people heal from trauma, by encouraging creative expression, and community. I believe that raising awareness is important particularly in regards to mental health. From February 2013 I have focused my energy on setting up a business online, currently called the Wildersoul Colouring Book. http://wildersoul.wordpress.com Various contact details are available from a central point at http://about.me/anasera.trifonoff

Self-employment Information

Sold various paintings privately from 1986 to date.
June 2012 Self-employed contractor. Demonstration model for video advertisement for a physiotherapist
October 2011 to March 2012 – Self-employed contractor. Video testimonials for patient interviews for a chiropractor. (Clinic has since moved to Wellington)
From May 2003 to October 2011 Self-employment in various capacities as below.
Desktop publishing for a takeaway shop.
Colouring Artwork for a Tourist Park
Colouring Artwork for Special Education speech therapists
1996 – Exhibited and sold paintings at French Art Shop Gallery, Ponsonby, Auckland in 1996.
1988 – Exhibited at Gallery 16, Kumeu, Auckland.
Sold my first painting at age 15 after it was exhibited in the Auckland Star Secondary School Art Exhibition.

Education

On-the-job learning 1988, and 1990 to date, in a broad variety of industries. Some short courses taken in Art, Stage/Screen and TV/Film Acting, graphic design, desktop publishing, electronics, and outdoor pursuits. Some involvement in Community theatre and Community circus.
Secondary school 1984-87 and 1989. ‘A’ Bursary awarded.
Graded in the top 5% nationally for Art at age 16.

Explanation of break in employment

Left work to raise a family from 1997. Homeschooling my two children since approximately 2003. Casual work during this time included some childcare, preschool, afterschool and a holiday programme for teens, as well as some cleaning and gardening work, and private tutoring in English for a speaker of another language. Health issues have made it difficult to take on more. Mostly related to stress. The worst of these issues has been addressed from mid-2012 to early 2013, in an intensive self-initiated treatment plan.

Transferable Skills

Creative, Artistic

Artistic, music appreciation, dance, body movement, perform, act, draw, sketch, render, present artistic ideas, play instruments, expressive.

Working with People

Patient, care for, pleasant, counsel people, sensitive, supportive, help others, insightful, teach, anticipate needs, open-minded, kind, take orders, listen, serving, trust, working with others, understand, adaptable

Leadership

Motivate people, plan, delegate, run meetings, direct others, explain things to others, self-motivated, get results, think of others, direct projects, team builder, solve problems, mediate problems, take risks, empowering others.

Some Key or Other transferable skills

Customer service oriented, accepted responsibility, desire to learn and improve, solve problems, team player, work independently, computer skills

Use my hands, assemble or make things, safety-conscious, follow instructions

Using Words, Ideas

Innovative, logical, research, create new ideas, design, understand the big picture

Summary

I’ve bolded the skills which stand out to me the most. That is; artistic, draw, sketch, render, help others, adaptable, self-motivated, get results, work independently, computer skills, use my hands, assemble or make things, innovative, create new ideas, design, understand the big picture.

Computer Skills

  • Inkscape – vector graphics editor
  • GIMP – image editor, similar to Photoshop
  • WordPress.com blogs
  • Twitter, Facebook, LinkedIn, Google+, About.me, Goodreads – social media
  • WordPress.org self-hosted blog (basics)
  • Windows, Linux and Macintosh operating systems.
  • Scribus – page layout and publication (desktop publishing program, similar to Pagemaker)
  • CreateSpace paperback self-publishing
  • Amazon Kindle e-book self-publishing
  • Gmail for email, also familiar with Outlook.
  • Chromium browser (Linux version of Chrome)
  • OpenOffice, LibreOffice, similar to MS Office.
  • OpenShot video editor. Also familiar with iMovie for Mac, and MovieMaker for Windows
  • SoundCloud audio
  • Grooveshark broadcasting, and recording
  • YouTube video
  • VideoPress on WordPress
  • Audacity – record and edit audio files
  • Skype, Google Talk
  • Synfig Studio – 2D animation (basics)
  • DropBox – file sharing in the Cloud
  • Sellbox – upload and sell digital files from DropBox
  • Previous experience with Excel spreadsheets, Word documents, PowerPoint presentations, although not currently using them.

I am a quick learner, and most of the above programs I set myself to learn over the last year. I am not afraid of good old-fashioned roll-the-sleeves-up hard work.

Some Previous Employers (prior to 1998)

Internet ProLink NZ Ltd (bought by another telco)
Napier Computer Systems Ltd
Avnet Pacific Ltd (NZ merged into Asia/Pacific)
Select Appointments (Temping agency – name changed to Randstad Pty Ltd)
West Plaza Copy Centre Ltd (Now Colour Copy & Print Ltd)
NM Studios, the Signmaker (downsized to work from home)
Walshes World Ltd – International Tourism Marketing (Now The Walshe Group Pty Ltd)

References on request.

Brainstorming – colouring book

Anything goes here, and any extra ideas are very welcome to throw into the mix. I need to shake my brain out a bit.

(Edit: This helped. The downheartedness is departing and the hopefulness is setting in once more. I recommend brainstorming to anyone pushing through a business idea)

—-BrAiN-STorMinG—

143MB file download takes maybe four hours or more on dial-up connections. That’s for 458 PNG files that are compressed into a single zipfile.

Some people do not have an internet connection at all.

Everyone who has a high speed internet connection with plenty of bandwidth, can already access my FREE online colouring book. Which is good…. although perhaps these are the people who are more able to afford a $12 subscription, than those with dial-up, or no internet at all. (?)

Colouring in is healing in itself, as it accesses the creative side of the brain.

Using the colouring as a means of expression, or as something to accompany a course of therapy really requires at least one other person to share the process with. This could be a friend, family member, therapist or counsellor, or similar. Someone to share the journey with and ‘be there’ when things get rough.

Online support groups, for colouring in. Share work, or share a story, or simply gather together with a creative bunch. Have fun!

Meet at a cafe and bring a bunch of colouring pics to share, along with some coloured pencils or crayons, and sharpeners. Forget about the rest of the world for a while.

Meet at a community art centre and start a colouring group for $x per session per person per week.

$180-ish per week, would be perhaps 2 days, with 2 sessions of four or five people per session. 9 people x $10 x 2 days

Would people pay that much to colour in?

Is there community funding available for a colouring project which aims to provide a healthy creative activity open to the whole community?

Hmm. 4 days, with 2 sessions of four or five people. 18 people x $5 x 4 days.

You know, anybody could do this, by printing off colouring book pages from my blog, and set up a venue, or go into schools, rest homes, mental health hospitals, or units within hospitals, to provide some colourful company to others. Whether as paid work, or as voluntary companionship.

I wonder if there is a grant available for one artist to work part-time on providing a free online colouring book to the global community via the internet…. Equivalent of 15 hrs a week at minimum wage is about $10,140. I might go down this avenue.

Schools are a big market…

Businesses apparently can now be sued for causing stress to their employees in the workplace. (Thank you mum for this idea…) Put colouring books into stressful offices to provide a quick time-out to de-stress, and engage the creative brain, before returning to the fray in a corporate environment.

(Schools and corporations do not appeal to me quite so much as our values are quite different.)

Perhaps if other people were to find these ideas useful to start their own business, then they could send a small commission for the use of the artwork. Like maybe 5% or 10%. You get 90% to 95% of whatever you are paid.

I have limitations and have to find a way to work around them.

So far the most suitable option for me, seems to be applying for a grant to work part-time as an artist providing a Creative Space, and ‘health resource.’  As well as asking for a small commission (royalty?) from others who may really be able to go out regularly and be with people face to face, and create a physical space where people can meet and colour in together.

Possibly, I could burn CDs or DVDs with 365+ colouring book pictures, and sell them for the $12. Plus postage.

143MB for 458 files might take up to half an hour to download, for high speed internet, with good bandwidth. For some it would be a lot quicker.  This would still be quicker than going through each blog post to download each picture individually. Once on your own computer, there is software available to preview all the pictures either in a file manager, or photo viewer.

Paper version. Needs to really be at a higher resolution for print, and a non-standard paper or binding used, which means paying a bit extra to self-publish. I am short of funds for paying the extra.  Increasing the size would be desirable, and this means editing every single image file. This would take quite some time.

I am convincing myself at this point to go ahead and offer the $12 download of 365+ files, as it has ongoing benefits that perhaps outweigh the time it takes to download. (I am used to downloading single files which take a second or a few seconds, or at most a number of short minutes to arrive on to my computer.) It would need to be treated as a large creative resource which will take more than an “instant” to arrive.

Okay. I will start writing my introductory offer, and load the large zipfile to my DropBox/Sellbox/PayPal machine. Ready to do business.

 

 

Draft Only – what do you think?

I’m sharing my business adventure as I go along. This is the basic format for my email and/or blog page invitation, the referral registration form, and Sellbox/PayPal link.

——First Draft——

Hi,

Offer – subscription and downloadable files. Buy now, $12 for 365+ artworks, and a year’s subscription for 2013.

Statement of benefit – Colouring in is good for the soul. It helped in my healing from PTSD. Quote, “asdkfjalsdkjflajsdf,” Testimonial, “a;soldklakdsjflakjsdf”

bio – Anasera Trifonoff, Wildersoul artist

background – helped with PTSD

Vision – colouring pictures available to the whole world

Mission – promote understanding of benefits of colouring in, daily uploads of artwork to blog, affordable subscriptions, available offline. Target market/s. All adults and children in general. Specifically: Mental health service providers and users, hospitals, disability service providers and users, physical and intellectual disabilities, addictions, drug & alcohol, counselling, prisons, older persons in rest homes, retirement villages, activities directors, alzheimers, social development, child, youth and family, family and community, older persons, disability, hospice, ADHD, restorative justice, victim support, adoption and foster care, sexual assault, brain injury, community services.

Promotion – 1000 invitations to subscribe during September for only $12

Invitation and Buy Now button/link to Sellbox

More info…

Join the Wildersoul Referral program, Link. Give a gift of 10% discount to the person you refer.   And earn a discount for your next year’s subscription, calculated at the end of the year. You may also be eligible for bonus discounts on special promotions, if I think up something interesting to offer! (Suggestions are welcome.)

01 – 10 referrals 20% discount

11 – 20 referrals 40% discount

21 – 30 referrals 60% discount

31 – 40 referrals 80% discount

40 + referrals 100% discount

You are welcome to refer individual people, or an organization, no problem.

Please register here, and I will give you a promotion code. Give this code to your family, friends, business contacts – anyone at all who could benefit from colouring in. All they need to do is enter the promotion code, to receive a 10% discount on their purchase at this link here. The code they enter will show up on my financial statements, and I can then keep count of how many referrals are yours at the end of the year.

I will then email you at the address you give on the registration form to give you a discount coupon to purchase the next year’s colouring book and subscription. It may even be 100% FREE.

Please encourage your friends to join the referral program to receive future discounts too.

—-

Email Form

Name

Email

Website

I would like to register for the Wildersoul Referral Program.

—-

Sellbox Form

Please enter your promotion code here:

Buy now, $12 for 365+ artworks, and a year’s subscription for 2013.

Sample of some colouring pictures as a preview.

——end of First Draft——

This is probably going to end up at wildersoul.com

It’s taking longer than I thought to get it all written up. I’m going to take a break and have a warm drink. LoL the links don’t exist yet, so please don’t be tricked into pressing the coloured text!

When I come back, I will search for the info I have already written for a short bio, and on my business plan, and in the profile I wrote up for Project O, at Harsh Reality.

~WilderSoul

Time Management

Righto… If I want to earn $10,140 (ish) for the year, and I need to show some sort of results in one month, then this is how time fits in to the plan.

I am offering a colouring book of 365+ pictures for $12.

Which is enough to colour one picture every day for a year, and includes access to colouring pictures on the blog for all of 2013.

(If you would like one, please email wildersoul@gmail.com to let me know! )

It will be instantly downloadable, so people can print it forever from their computer without having to spend on internet access every time they search for a picture to colour in. Also, if they are a hospital or a therapist, or a community art group, then they can print as many copies of the colouring pictures as they like, for the group of people in their care.

So… I aim to send invitations to 1000 different organisations, or people, during the month of September. Seems like a big number, so I broke it down.

That’s 30 invitations each day for 30 days. (I am rounding it for ease of calculation). Comes to 900, and that’s okay, because $12 x 1000 is $12,000.

Because that still sounds like a lot to me, who is a bit of a hermit when it comes to approaching people, I broke it down a bit further.

15 contacts in the morning, and 15 contacts in the evening,

for the 30 days of September.

And that’s the plan. I hunted through the Yellow Pages, and White Pages, and have the first two days of invites written up to start tomorrow. One page for each set of 15 contacts. Although, I may simply take all the broad categories of people, and send invitations via the internet to similar groups online, rather than local. (This is because a lot of the “local” ones are outside my free calling area by phone). I’ll try a combination of both local and online.

Next step is to zip up all the files. I am not going to reformat them, although in future, I have a system in place that provides both US Letter and A4 size files. That means the next set of 365+ pictures will be bigger than this first introductory set.

After that, it’s time to set up one page that I can link to for my potential customers to visit when they receive their invitation. It might be a Sellbox page – I thought of that just now. I will think carefully about what words to use, and how to present it. Hopefully it will be perfect to keep in place for the rest of the year, for anyone interested in having a copy of the Wildersoul Colouring Book that prints out offline, and you can search through without having to enter and exit blog posts.

Now I am interested in how big the zip file will be! Hopefully not an unmanageable size. I could always break it into smaller sizes. We’ll see.

Once it is all ready, I would invite and encourage you all to spread the word to anyone, whether adults or children who enjoy colouring in for no particular reason, or anyone interested in the therapeutic side of colouring in.

These are the broad categories of people or organisations that I will be approaching:

  • Mental health service providers and users, including:
  • Counsellors
  • Therapists
  • Psychologists
  • Hospitals
  • Disability service providers and users, inlcuding:
  • Physical disabilities
  • Intellectual disabilities
  • Addictions, including:
  • Drugs
  • Alcohol
  • Prisons
  • Restorative Justice
  • Victim Support
  • Older Persons, including:
  • Rest Homes
  • Retirement Villages
  • Activities directors
  • Alzheimers
  • Hospice
  • ADHD
  • Brain Injury
  • Sexual assault
  • Adoption
  • Foster Care
  • Community services
  • Social Development – Ministry or services, including:
  • Child Youth and Family services
  • Family and Community
  • Older Persons
  • Disability

My means to reach people will be by email or phone locally, and online via WordPress blogs, Twitter groups, About.me profiles, Linked In groups, Facebook family and friends, Google Plus somehow – I am not too familiar with it yet.

I am hoping to publish my business plan sometime tomorrow too.

Time management isn’t a rigid and strict thing to me, it is a way of organising my mind so as not to be overwhelmed, while achieving goals that I set for myself. I had a bit of a sleep this afternoon to catch up, and now a bit of night shift to get my plan on to the blog. I used to do this for work when I was pregnant. I would sometimes drive in to work at 2am to get things done, when unable come in during the day. Flexibility works well for me. It makes best use of my available energy. I am off to get some sleep now. G’night!

Life Update – Creative Contacts

I am determined to move into the equivalent of 15hrs a week paid employment. This means for me, a specific financial goal of $10,140 per year, minimum.

First step – revisit my one page business plan and publish it.
Second step – serious look at time management
Third step – brainstorm ideas for painting… later on look at whether it is relevant.

Now for a list of creative contacts that I am pursuing. I need support for my confidence and personal development, as well as creative and professional development. And it needs to be from within my community if possible. Online community support may turn out to be more suitable for my situation. If this list is helpful to you please feel free to help yourself to contacts! 🙂 I feel this is the best and most accessible place for me to keep it, and to keep adding to it.

Online Community Support
We Poets Show It
Art Is The Cure
Harsh Reality

New Zealand
Creative Spaces – Arts Access Aotearoa
http://artsaccess.org.nz/about-us
info@artsaccess.org.nz
(04) 802 4349

Turning Point Recovery Services
http://turningpoint.org.nz/
http://turningpoint.org.nz/23/contact-us

Creative NZ
http://www.creativenz.govt.nz/

Chamber of Commerce
http://www.tauranga.org.nz

Business.govt.nz

Twitterpoetry

Thoughtful response to another reminder to beware, after hearing of one more fake suicide.

single crystalline white petal
unfolds the truth
glows inside a white fire
diamond heart which shatters
with your pure voice.

~

Don't!
Lie to me
Tell me the truth
Leave me
Do!
I see you
You need me
I know you
Never!
Say I love you
Walk away, no goodbye.

~

I (don't) believe in you
You are (no) different
So (dis)honest
You love me (not)
My mind is (never) made up
Truth is (un)real

~

My hands shook my knees too
My eyes darted, where to?
Hide or run away, there is no place
like Here to Stay, Stand Firm.

~

MIA said Do You Care?
SAD replied No.
And yet too much.

~

Love
Not Test.

~

Sue Is Siding with Loveless
Life is Scorning Sue
The thing to do?

~

Depression damp and heavy
Blanket
my mind rusts to the truth
which used to be sharp
Poison Tipped Shiny Dagger
in your hands.

~

Closed doors bar my mind entry
into the Night before
The hinges rust off and I am free
to see inside it is not pretty 

~

The cloak of anonymity discarded
for the secret of being me.

~

A mind sparkles, aflame and aflare
Brightening the night, with blinding glare
Eyes close in peace
Not one missed jigsaw piece

~

Your mind has encompassed the world
and lazily traverses it 100 times a day
while plodders stumble and toil
on their own soil

~

In dark hours your voice is a strong lifeline of presence
While shivering your words shelter me
A fire ignites in my heart

~

don't worry I'm still here no suicide note I see you care
and yet it's all a dream because I do not believe you know me

~

The aching need to find the truth of who cares at all,
who cares the most, deeply strangles my red raw throat,
I die, you cry

~

Adoring fans won't admit the betrayal
True friends growl and turn away
Inside my fishbowl
Silently watch
Cold watery truth

~

home calls
urgent incessant nagging
tugging at my heartstrings
pulling at my conscience
meowing at the window
Open the door!

~

Pick up a book
chew on a pen
throw down a thought
chew it again