Blogs are not for making money

Okay, this is a business therapy update… I have learned that blogs are not for making money. It’s not the end of the world, just the end of the direction I was heading in. I still have the e-books, the art, and the technical skills I have developed over the last six-months to a year.

And lots of contacts online. The online community, and the flexible nature of working online are very important to me. I have advertised a “Meetup” for meeting people in the ‘real world’ and already I am finding it more and more difficult to visualize it as a sustainable thing for me. I have been noting my physical condition, and the mental processes relating to setting it up.

I still have trouble making phone calls. To the point where I am not making them. I have improved to the point where I answer my phone, and I am making calls out to close family. I am making appointments and keeping them, and this is all good. Minimal stress involved.

There are things that are outside of my control, and potentially dangerous, when it comes to meeting random people at a set date and time. When I start pushing into this sort of territory, the “symptoms” I have noticed are:

Avoidance (as in phone calls.) I know that if I push it, this will lead to a stress response which gets my immune system all fizzed up. Kind of like asthma or allergic reaction.

Tearfulness, and feelings of dread, at random times of day.

Nightmares. And sort of daymares..

My mind goes through all the scenarios of the potential danger I would face. Although I am not experiencing terror or panic, I am feeling the heightened stress and pressure.

I would have to kind of go all hyper and almost pretend to be someone else in order to push through it all, and from experience this would last about three months, before needing a doctor’s appointment for stress/exhaustion, etc. I foresee it would culminate in allergy problems, compromised immune system, which at this stage could lead direct to cancers due to the long-term nature of this stress, and things like chronic fatigue where the adrenals basically start to completely pack it in. Kept up too long and I face unconsciousness, coma, and death. Sounds morbid doesn’t it, but I have done my research.

In the last week I have fallen down three or four times. Have had trouble getting to sleep, mostly due to putting pressure on myself to speed up the process of earning an income online. My skin inflammation has worsened, and my legs keeping swelling up, on and off.

Prior to that, with the positive excitement from last February onward of setting up a business online, I have been really very healthy and happy. The daily art has helped I reckon.

I have another appointment soon, with the powers-that-be, and hope they might have some useful suggestions for how to handle things from here, with regard to my personal circumstances.

For now, I have an another e-book to put together! And this one is going to be marketed like none of my others have…. And, I am publishing and marketing it for someone else, not myself. This works well for me. If it sells well, (and I am aiming for a bestseller) then perhaps there are more e-books I could market for other people. We will see! 🙂

(Ed: October 6th, Lost some kgs, and down another size in clothes. o.O Hehe don’t know whether to call it good or bad. Appetite poor, and queasy on and off. On the good news side of the picture, sunshine helps with de-stressing for sleep, as does a long walk, and a hot bath at the end of the day. A good sleep helps with thinking and ideas. Dentist visit might lead to an extraction, who knows, due to a split tooth. Toenails are brittle. Thoughts are a bit all over the place and I may hunt for an advocate on Monday. There are things that are hard to say, and possibly (hopefully) unnecessary to say. Please excuse all the notes! Best thing for calm at present is to trust in God.)

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How I Became A Full-Time Freelance Writer and Blogger

Joe Warnimont shares practical words of experience with fellow bloggers. There are a few things I’d like to check out, such as Genesis as a platform for self-hosting. And I want to get serious about finding my niche. Recommended reading!

My new words to practice saying, and writing:

I am an artist

I am a poet

What do you get out of Joe’s story?

via How I Became A Full-Time Freelance Writer and Blogger.